When it rains, it pours

It isn’t often that I don’t blog for over a week.

Even through my busiest times this year, I’ve still found time to write posts about the little joys in life and the things I’m interested in. Even when everything has been hectic and its felt like I barely have time to breath, I’ve still found comfort in writing and photography and the creativity that comes with blogging.

The difficulty over the last fortnight is that I’ve not had that motivation.

When life hits you hard, it hits you hard. Why is it that “when it rains, it pours”?

The last fortnight has been entirely like that. I have despaired at the thought that everything I touched was turning to dust around me. Either that or exploding uncontrollably! They say bad news comes in threes, but I honestly can’t remember the last time I had so many negative things happening to people I love in such a short space of time.

Don’t get me wrong, I’ve had some really nice days – a weekend in Falmouth with my best friends and a two days of Harry Potter magic were definitely the highlights. However, truth be told, the days in between have been tough.

I’m not very good at admitting this.

I’ve cried on my way to work. I’ve been tired and grumpy from stress and lack of sleep. I’ve had that stomach sinking, heart racing blind moments of panic wondering what on earth could be next. When you get one bit of bad news after another, it’s hard to tell yourself it will ever come to an end.

I’ve not ever suffered with diagnosed anxiety, but after the last two weeks, watching my every step for the next disaster, expecting the worst of every situation, I can somewhat empathise. It’s not a healthy way to live, yet you also can do very little to change the way you feel about it.

Someone last week tweeted “If you’ve had a really terrible week, all it means is that you’re due a really great one”. I really really hope this is true.

So here I am. I’ve come back to my blog, my space for life rambling and positivity with a rather negative post, I know. But maybe it helps to write it down. After all it’s your space, you can write what you want to, right?

Can’t find the motivation to blog?

Don’t beat yourself up about it!

Want to admit that actually the reason you’ve not posted in a while isn’t because you’ve been on a glorious holiday in the sunshine sipping pornstar martinis, but is in fact because all your energy has been used up just trying to hold it together?

Admit it!

Maybe its nice to know that we’re not alone in this, and that everyone has days, weeks, or months when everything is not so rose-tinted, but rather is actually pretty shit.

The promise that it will get better is hard to believe, but part of that is forcing it to.

Doing things that make you happy.

Seeing the people that feed your soul and make it sing. Eating good food, turning the music up, curling up with a book and just forgetting it all for a while. Because the truth is, to quote one of the wisest people I’ve ever come across, happiness can be found even in the darkest times, if only one remembers to turn on the light…